Chapter 11

We went up to our room and laid down on the bed, watching television. We were watching a movie, I'm not sure what its called. In the movie a really beautiful lady came up.
Jazi: "She's very pretty!" I squealed.
Fawaz: "Eeh, Mashallah!" Fawaz agreed.
He's married, how dare he agree that a girl is beautiful? I'm right in front of him. I lowered my head, I could hear Fawaz chuckle. Suddenly Zac Efron came up on the screen.
Jazi: "Wow." I said while staring at him.
Fawaz: "What did you say?" He asked through gritted teeth.
Jazi: "I said wow, about Zac Efron." I felt it was okay to say that since he said a girl was pretty, I could say a guy was attractive.
I felt that he was calm, too calm. Weird. Exactly seconds later I felt him pulling my hair, forcing me to get up. He held my face with both of his hands, forcing me to face him. He was hurting me, as usual.
Fawaz: "How dare you say that?" He looked very scary.
Jazi: "I didn't do anything wrong!" I defended myself.
Fawaz pulled me from my hair towards the wall. What is he going to do to me now?
Jazi: "Fawaz, please you don't have to do this." I pleaded.
Fawaz: "Shut up."
Jazi: "Okay." I quietly mumbled.
Fawaz: "Shut up." He repeated.
I was just about to reply when he smashed my head to the wall. I can't even explain how painful that was.
Jazi: "Please stop." I was begging him now.
Fawaz: "Say one more word and see what I'll do to you." Fawaz kept staring into my eyes.
Whenever I looked down, he puts his hands on my chin and forces me to look into his eyes. I don't get what he's trying to do. The look he was giving me just scares me so much! He was still holding me tight, I was trying to loosen his grip. Fawaz pushed me to the ground. There was a table to my right, my hips were smashed to the corner of the table, and my head slammed to the ground. I'm only hoping and praying that the baby in my stomach is healthy and alive. I was praying for my baby's life while I was laying flat on the ground, afraid to move. Suddenly pain shot through me, I was just about to scream out when I saw the devilish look in Fawaz's eyes. I didn't say anything, afraid I might get into any more trouble.


Sorry about how short the chapter is! I promise next chapter will be different, I'll even have Fawaz's point of view!

Chapter 10

Fawaz came so close to me, he was literally in my face!
Jazi: "Na3am?" I replied trying to be brave.
Fawaz: "Jazi, I swear to god, if I catch you watching that show, you have no one to blame but yourself." He said through clenched teeth.
Jazi: "Enshallah."
Fawaz: "So when will we have our first child?" He asked.
Oh I forgot to mention, I'm pregnant, this is my fourth month now and everything is going great il7amdilla!
Jazi: "Long way to go, It's only been four months!"
Fawaz: "I can't wait! I hope it goes by easily."
Jazi: "Enshallah."
Fawaz leaned over to kiss me. Our lips were inches apart.
"Jazi! Fawaz! The movie started!" Screamed Jassim from downstairs. Why? He just had to ruin the moment didn't he?
Fawaz: "Jazi let's go downstairs." He said while backing away, completely forgetting about the almost kiss.
Jazi: "Okay."
Fawaz went downstairs and I headed to the bathroom. I stared at my reflection in the mirror, I looked scary. I looked so ugly. I started washing my face hoping for it to look cleaner and better. Fawaz doesn't need a girl like me. I'm not that pretty. I'm not that beautiful. He didn't let me continue my studies and actually have a chance of getting a job. He made me hate myself. He deserves a girl who's beautiful, smart, has a job, a girl that can stand in his way. A girl who can stand for herself, a girl who's not insecure. A girl who can actually care for her husband. I do care for him though. I went downstairs and I saw him watching television with Jassim and Sarah. I felt a bit hungry so I went to the kitchen to make myself a sandwich. I then saw Fawaz coming to the kitchen.
Fawaz: "Why are you taking so long?"
Jazi: "Nothing I'm just making a sandwich since I'm hungry because I didn't eat dinner." I emphasised on the 'hungry' part since its his fault I didn't eat.
Fawaz: "How funny."
Jazi: "Haha.." I fake laughed.
I was just cutting up my sandwich when I felt a hand on my waist. Aaahh I love this feeling when Fawaz hugs me! Fawaz kissed my right cheek, he's so cute!
Fawaz: "Your beautiful mashallah." He said while kissing my left cheek. I turned red.
Jazi: "Thank you." I said shyly.
Fawaz: "Haha, your blushing." He teased.
Jazi: "Yes, please stop I'm shy." I didnt actually want him to stop though.
Fawaz: "I love you." I love it when he randomly says that!
Jazi: "I love you more."
He kissed my forehead. I love it when he kisses my forehead.
Jazi: "Do we go up? Or do you want to watch the movie?"
Fawaz: "I don't watch to watch it, do you?"
Jazi: "No."
Fawaz: "Okay let's go upstairs then."
Jazi: "Okay!"
I think that was one of my favourite moments with Fawaz.

Chapter 9

Before leaving the car, I tried begging him one more time.
Jazi: "Please."
Fawaz: "Please shnu?"
Jazi: "I don't want to cook for your friends." I pleaded.
Fawaz: "Bas! Stop the nonsense." He commanded.
Jazi: "Enshallah." I got out of the car, but he didn't.
Fawaz: "Go inside and tell Jassim and Sarah to come to the car."
Jazi: "Why?" I was curious.
Fawaz: "I'm inviting them out for dinner."
Ouch. How rude. Good job hurting my already hurt feelings, Fawaz.
Jazi: "What about me?"
Fawaz: "You're not invited."
My eyes teared up. Who would do this to their own wife?
Jazi: "Enshallah." I always listen to him, I never say no. Why would he treat me this badly?
Fawaz: "Now get out of my face and go call them."
I went to call them as fast as I could. I entered the house and I saw Jassim and Sarah watching a movie.
Jassim: "Oh you're back! Sarah are you ready to go?"
Sarah: "Eeh!" Ew I hate her squeaky annoying voice. Jassim held Sarah's hand and they went to head out. Before he went out, he turned around.
Jassim: "Aren't you coming along with us?"
Jazi: "No."
Jassim: "Oh, are you okay? Is anything wrong?" He asked.
Is he being to nice? That's weird.
Jazi: "Nothing's wrong, I'm just a bit tired."
Jassim: "Oh okay, bye."
Jazi: "Bye." I replied.
After they left. I went upstairs to my room. I changed to my pyjamas and went to my bed and started crying. Why does he treat me like a piece of shit? I've never done something wrong or bad to him like he does to me. I do everything to make him happy. I still love him. I keep asking myself why over and over again, and I don't even know the answer! I kept crying and crying. I then calmed down a bit, so I checked Twitter. A few tweets on my timeline caught my eye.
@Fawaz: "Best day of my life! El7amdellah!"
@Jassim: "Best day! Sadly, some people missed it!"
@Sarah: "El7amdillah I had fun! One of the best restaurants I have ever tried!"
As soon as I read those tweets I got a mention.
@Fawaz: "@Jazi you missed out on all the fun!"
I hate him. I wanted to reply to him and say you're the one who didn't invite me, What should I do? But I love him and I didn't want to start fights, so I didn't reply to him. Time sure does pass by slowly when you're bored. I switched the on the television. Luckily, it was time for my favourite television show, Fatma. Thank god Fawaz isn't here, or he would've killed me if he caught me watching it. Though I still didn't understand why he can do anything he wants, and I can't even watch a simple television show.
I was sitting in bed, when I heard the door open. I didn't have time to close the television.
"Jazi! How many times do I have to tell you not to watch that show?" He screamed so loudly it hurt my ears, his face was red. Oh no.

Chapter 8

It was Khaled. He was my fiancé, before I got married to Fawaz. The month before the wedding he said that he doesn't want to marry me! He suddenly said that, and he didn't even have a reason! I get embarrassed when I see him since he refused to marry me. Fawaz knows about this, yet he still talks to him.
Fawaz: "Hallah Bu Waleed!"
Fawaz: "Hallah Fawaz!"
Fawaz rolled down the window and they greeted each other. While I watched and listened to their conversation.
Khaled: "Shloun Jazi?"
Fawaz's face became red. He didn't like it when his friends mention me in front of him, I don't know why. I secretly think he's ashamed of me, though I don't know if its true.
Fawaz: "El7amdillah." He bluntly replied.
Khaled: "Ohh, see you later enshallah, bye!" The conversation was cut short since we were talking at a red stop light, which just turned green.
"Finally!" I quietly mumbled.
Khaled gave me a weird stare, like he didn't understand what I said.
Fawaz: "Enshallah, bye!"
Khaled drove off to wherever he was going.
Fawaz: "Jazi, do you still love him?" He suspiciously asked.
Jazi: "No! I swear I love you and only you!" I quickly replied.
Fawaz: "Okay then." He said with no emotion at all. He didn't even say I love you back.
Jazi: "Okay." I sighed.
Awkward silence filled the air. I was wondering which reaturant we are going to.
Jazi: "Where are we going?"
Fawaz: "McDonalds."
I'm tired of faking a smile, I'm tired of how he doesn't care about me. Yet I still suck it up and say nothing.
Jazi: "Enshallah!"
Fawaz: "We're only picking up drive thru and going back home.
Jazi: "Fawaz."
Fawaz: "3youn Fawaz." This was not the time to be sweet.
Jazi: "Let's go to a place other than McDonalds, change the atmosphere for a bit." I suddenly saw Fawaz take a turn, I saw McDonalds in front of us, why the heck did he turn?
Jazi: "Fawaz, McDonalds is right there why did you turn?" I asked pointing at McDonalds.
Fawaz: "No we're going to another place since you don't want McDonalds."
My face lighted up!
Fawaz: "I'm taking you home!"
Jazi: "But why?" I sadly said.
Fawaz: "What do I do you don't want McDonalds."
Jazi: "Fawaz, please don't."
Fawaz: "Stop nagging!"
Jazi: "Enshallah."
Fawaz: "My friends are visiting tomorrow, I want you to prepare a tasty lunch." He commanded.
I hate cooking for his friends. They make me feel bad about my cooking.
Jazi: "What if I don't want to cook for you and your friends?"
Fawaz: "No. You don't even have a choice. You will cook tomorrow."
Jazi: "What do I cook?" I gave up on trying to convince him.
Fawaz: "Machbous la7am."
Jazi: "Enshallah." As soon as I said that, we were back home.

Chapter 7

After ten minutes I was ready. I wore a cute black dress, with black high heels. I didn't wear any make up, I looked so scary. My face was pale, but it was better than not going out. I didn't want to start any fights with Fawaz. I stayed in my bed, waiting for Fawaz.
After two minutes, Fawaz showed up with a towel around his waist. Water dripping down from his wavy, messy hair. He literally looked perfect.
Fawaz: "Wait a bit and I'll be done."
Jazi: "Enshallah."
Fawaz went to the closet and wore his creamy white dishdasha. After that, he went in front of the mirror and started doing his ghitra.
Fawaz: "Ready?"
Jazi: "Eeh!"
Fawaz: "Wait!" He stared at me suspiciously.
Jazi: "Yes?"
Fawaz: "Come closer to me." He commanded.
What did I do now? I went closer to him, with my head bent down. He put his finger on my chin and pushed it slightly up, forcing me to make eye contact with him.
Jazi: "Fawaz shnu?"
Fawaz: "Can't I kiss my wife?"
Jazi: "Yes, you can." I blushed, he's adorable.
He slowly leaned over and kissed me.
Fawaz: "Do you have any makeup on?"
Jazi: "Nope."
Fawaz: "Let me check." He carefully inspected my face.
Fawaz: "Do you have eyeliner?"
Jazi: "Nope, my eyes are naturally like that."
Seriously? We've been married for three years and he still doesn't know what my eyes look like?
Fawaz: "But your eyes look like you have eyeliner on."
Jazi: "Fawaz my eyes are like this! After all these years you don't know what my eyes look like?"
Fawaz: "Stop the silliness."
Jazi: "Enshallah" I obeyed, I didn't want to start any fights.
Fawaz intertwined our hands and we went downstairs. We saw Jassim and Sarah in the living room. I tried not to make eye contact.
Fawaz: "Bye, we're going out."
Jassim and Sarah: "Bye, enjoy yourselves." Wow, they were actually nice for once.
We went outside and got in the car. We drove off and stopped at red stoplight and I saw a person in the car next to us. I never thought I'd see this person after my marriage, my eyes instantly started tearing up.



Hey guys! I'm terribly sorry it's short, but I'm trying my best and I'm not in kuwait at the moment so it's hard to get a laptop, bear with me please! xx