Chapter 6

Fawaz: "Jazi! I want to have a talk with you outside, now!"
His voice sounded so scary, I was terrified.
Jazi: "Enshallah."
As I went out of the pool room, I could hear Sarah and Jassim laughing.
Fawaz: "What's wrong with you?"
He then took hold of my hand and squeezed it hard. I could feel the bones in my hand squeezing together.
Jazi: "Asfa." I whispered.
Fawaz's grip on my hand became even tighter.
Jazi: "Fawaz, please stop! You hurting me." I winced in pain.
Fawaz: "Why did you shout at Sarah and Jassim? Mu 3ayb 3laych?" He shouted.
Jazi: "I told you I'm sorry!"
He finally let go of my hand.
Fawaz: "Now come and hug me."
What? Okay now I'm confused, he was just mad at me. How did I end up marrying him?
He stepped a little closer to me, and I stepped back. I'm his wife, why am I so scared of him? Fawaz suddenly hugged me. I left my hands down, I didn't hug him back. He took my hand and put it behind his back, forcing me to hug him. I mean I'm okay with hugging him! But he was just mad at me, now he suddenly wants to hug me? He finally let go of me.
Fawaz: "Should we go upstairs?"
Jazi: "Madry. Kayfik you're the one that's swimming."
He decided to ignore my comment. Fawaz held my hand, and dragged me upstairs.
Fawaz: "Jazi."
Jazi: " 3younha?"
Fawaz: "I'll just take a shower and then we will go out."
That suddenly made my mood a hundred times better! Fawaz doesn't let me go out, and this is the first time he offers to take me out!
Jazi: "Okay! Enshallah!"
I went to pick out my clothes.
Fawaz: "Bs Jazi."
Jazi: "Yes?"
Fawaz: "Don't you dare put on makeup. I'll take you back home if I find you wearing makeup."
He said it so sternly it gave me shivers.
Jazi: "Enshallah!"
Fawaz: "I'm serious!"
Jazi: "So am I."
Fawaz then went to take a shower and get ready.

Chapter 5

Fawaz: "Ta3alay!"
He looked at me, so I went towards him.
Jazi: "Na3am?"
Fawaz: "I'm going to eat your food, and I'm going to finish it all!"
Waay he so adorable.
Jazi: "Come to the kitchen and I'll prepare the food for you."
Fawaz: "Yalla okay."
We went to the kitchen and I started preparing the food. Fawaz helped me a little. We sat down at the table, eating and talking about random things.
Fawaz: "Tislam eedich!"
Jazi: "You really liked it?"
Fawaz: "Eeh!"
Jazi: "Bil3afya."
Fawaz: "Y3afeech"
I smiled.
Fawaz: "Do you want to swim?"
Jazi: "I'm a bit tired, you swim and I'll watch you."
Fawaz: "Okay, as you like."
Jazi: "I'll wait downstairs."
Fawaz: "Okay."
I went to the kitchen, took some chips and candy then I headed downstairs to the pool. While waiting for Fawaz, i decided to call my little brother. His name is Ali, he's 19, younger than me in 3 years.
Jazi: "Hi Ali, how is Kuwait?"
Ali: "Hey, wallah we miss you! When are you coming back?"
Jazi: "I miss you guys more! I'm not sure yet, Fawaz didn't tell me."
Ali: "Okay bs don't take too long! I miss you and your whining and bickering."
Jazi: "Be careful with your words or I might not come back!" I teased.
Ali: "La sorry forget I said anything!" He teased back.
Suddenly the door opened ou I can see Jassim and Sarah. What are they doing here?
Jazi: "Nice talking to you bs sorry I have to go now!"
Ali: "Oh okay, bye!"
Jazi: "Why did you come here?" I asked Jassim and Sarah.
Jassim: "This is our house too you idiot."
Jazi: "Does Fawaz know?"
Jassim: "Why should I care about Fawaz? I can't even feel comfortable in my own home?"
Jazi: "Okay never mind."
In a few seconds Fawaz entered the room.
Jazi: "Fawaz, these people are here." I said trying to make him realise I don't want them.
Fawaz: "Eeh, it's their house too I can't do anything."
Jazi: "Oh, um okay."
Fawaz and the idiots jumped in the pool. As soon as I turned my head I saw Sarah and Jassim making out. It was gross, why do it in front of us? Get a room! I can't take it anymore!
Jazi: "What's wrong with you two idiots? Can you not spend a second without kissing?"
After that moment I regretted saying those words.

Chapter 4

I slowly opened my eyes. I saw myself in my bedroom, in bed, and Fawaz was in front of me.
Jazi: "Fawaz!"
Fawaz: "Jazi! You finally woke up."
Jazi: "Eeh, sh9ar?"
Fawaz: "Ma 9ar shay." Okay, now I'm confused.
Jazi: "Fawaz I'm serious!"
Fawaz: "Eeh I'm serious too! You said you were going to sleep and you went upstairs."
I knew he was lying. He kept blinking quickly.
Jazi: "Fawaz, is this the truth?"
Fawaz: "Eeh!"
Jazi: "Khala9 3ayal, okay."
Fawaz: "Eeh, enzayn saway '3ada."
Jazi: "Shnu taby?"
Fawaz: "Machboos la7am."
Jazi: "Enshallah."
I quickly went down stairs to make lunch.
"Jaziyo why are you running!" I hate it when he calls me that. I looked to my left and saw Jassim. I hate this guy so much it's unbelievable.
Jazi: "Shnu, shtaby?"
Jassim: "La bas as2al."
Jazi: "Enzayn ana basawy '3ada, tell your wife to help me out."
Jassim: "Bs 3ad! We just got married! Let her make the salad only."
Jazi: "Way3 la y6ee7 ni9'ha! Shda3wa! Okay at least call her."
Jassim: "Sarah, Ta3alay!"
I saw Sarah running towards him like a lost puppy.
Sarah: "Na3am Jassim 7abeeby?"
Her voice is so squeaky! She stuck close to him and Jassim kissed her, in front of me, way3.
Get a room, would you? I lowered my head, I don't want to see this crap.
Jassim: "Yalla Sarah, saway '3ada ma3a Jazi."
Sarah: "Jassim! Tawny mitzawja ma agdar." She said in a dalou3a tone.
Jassim: "Shda3wa! It's only a salad!"
Sarah: "Okay 7abeeby."
Jassim: "7beebat galby wallah!"
I always feel miserable if I see a couple loving each other, ou ma yir'9oun 3ala za3al a7ad. It makes me feel bad, comparing them to how Fawaz treats me.
Sarah: "A7ibik!"
Jassim: "Ana akthar, 7abeebty."
Jazi: "Okay yalla follow me to the kitchen."
Sarah: "Your just jealous because your husband doesn't love you like Jassim loves me"
Tears formed in my eyes. Bs I blinked quickly, forcing them to not stream down my cheeks. I will not cry in front of them. What is actually that obvious?
Jazi: "Weeh, chub intay! Jealous of you? Dream on, il7amdella everyone knows about my marriage. Unlike you I don't have a marriage no one knows about!"
Sarah: "Okay okay, you keep lying to yourself."
I decided to ignore her comment. I went to the kitchen, took out the ingredients I needed and started working on the lunch. After 5 hours of hard work, I finally finished. I went to the living room and I find Sarah and Jassim eating Chinese take away!
Jazi: "I've spent 5 hours in the kitchen cooking for who? The cat?"
Jassim: "Even that cat won't like your food!" He rudely commented.
Jazi: "Your are more than a jerk!" He hurt my feelings, I spent all day cooking for them and they decide to eat from a restaurant! Suddenly, I see Fawaz coming down the stairs.
Fawaz: "Why are you guys screaming?"
Sarah: "Oh nothing, just that your stupid wife is crazy."
Fawaz: "Hey intay! Don't you even dare talk about my wife like that again, fahma?"
And they ask me why I love him.

Chapter 3

I looked away. I'm afraid to look into his eyes. He held my head with both of his hands, scary man.
Fawaz: "Ti2asifay."
I lowered my eyes. I dont want to apologise, not to him. I didn't do anything wrong, and I'm getting punished for no reason. He held my face even tighter, it started to hurt. Tears rolled down my face.
Fawaz: "Jazi, Ti2asifay!"
His loud voice echoed throughout the pool.
Jazi: "Asfa."
Fawaz took his hand off my face.
Fawaz: "Eeh, that's better!"
I just nodded. Typical Fawaz, just doing things his own way.
Fawaz: "Nisayt agoulich, tara bacher Jassim ou Sarah are coming over."
Great. If I didn't mention, Jassim and Sarah are secretly married. Jassim is one of Fawaz's close friends.
Fawaz: "They're moving in here, with us."
My eyes widened.
Jazi: "Laysh?"
Fawaz: "He paid for the house too, he has to live here."
See, we just moved in a few days ago.
Jazi: "Oh, okay."
I didnt want to show him that I didn't want them here, though I think that was obvious from my sad expression.
Fawaz: "Ni93ad?"
Jazi: "Ni93ad." I had to agree, I don't even have a choice.
6ila3ana mn il masba7, and we went upstairs. After Fawaz took his shower, I got in. I took a long, hot and relaxing shower.
Fawaz: "Jazi! Bsir3a 6il3ay barra."
I was startled.
Jazi: "Shfeek?!"
Fawaz: "6il3ay barra bsir3a!"
Shsawayt ana?
Jazi: "Enshallah. Bs let me change."
I quickly got dressed. I was wearing a yellow sun dress right above my knees. I came out of the bathroom, and I can see Fawaz is aggravated.
Jazi: "Fawaz, taby shay?"
Fawaz: "Jassim and Sara are downstairs!"
Jazi: "Waayy!! Weren't they supposed to arrive tomorrow?"
Fawaz: "Madry 3an'hum."
Jazi: "Enzayn, go greet them please."
Fawaz: "Nizlay ma3ay."
Jazi: "But my hair is still wet!"
Fawaz: "Deal with it! Tie your hair and come."
Jazi: "Enshallah."
I tied my hair, and went downstairs with Fawaz.
Jassim: "Hala Jaziyo."
He came next to me. I felt a punch in the face. Then it was all black...

Cliffhanger? I'm sorry I had to, it makes the story a little more interesting!:D

Chapter 2

I wanted to say these words out loud. I wanted to tell him my true feelings about him. I wanted to make him feel guilty. I wanted him to feel sorry for me. He never felt guilty, except if I started crying my eyes out.
Jazi: "Eeh, adry."
Fawaz: "Yalla 3ayal come and hug me, love."
This is what I mean when he makes me feel like a princess. I went to him, and I hugged him. I love him, I really do.
Fawaz: "Nanzil nisba7?"
We have this indoor swimming pool in the basement. I dont like swimming. Bs I do it for Fawaz.
Jazi: "Enshallah."
I got up from the bed to go to the closet. Fawaz held my hands to stop me from moving. Those hands, The same hands who used to slap me several times, punch me in the eyes.
Jazi: "Na3am?"
Fawaz: "Wear a bikini."
Jazi: "Bs la maby!" I whined.
Fawaz: "Entay shfeech? Kil ma ashtreelich shay ma talbseena! Khala9 intay bss sim3ay il kalam." He said sternly.
I knew if I said something back, it will turn into get into a fight. I just nodded. I don't like showing off my body.
Jazi: "Enzayn can I wear a shirt?"
Fawaz: "Kayfich."
I quickly went to the closet. Took out everything I needed, my bikini and one of Fawaz's oversized shirts. I went to the bathroom and changed. When I finished and went out, I saw Fawaz dressed in his swim shorts.
Fawaz: "Eeh, jameela murty wallah." I blushed.
Those lips who comforted me with some nice words, are the same lips who always shouted at me for lame reasons.
Jazi: "Mashkour." I said shyly.
Fawaz: "Yalla ta3aly!"
He came to me, and held my hand throughout our walk to the swimming pool. Wi9alna ta7at, and he jumped in.
Fawaz: "Enzayn intay mu 6aba?"
Jazi: "La, bas ba7i6 reely."
Fawaz gam min mukana, ou he came to me.
Fawaz: "La ib tyeen."
Fawaz shalny mn mukany ou he threw me in the pool!
Great move, I fell inside and sank to the bottom of the pool. I could feel water rushing into my nose and ears. I quickly jumped out and gasped for air.
Jazi: "Fawaz inta shsawayt? '3aby?"
Oh did I regret saying those words. Fawaz's eyes turned red. He raised his hands to give me a slap. I quickly closed my eyes. Then it hit me. A very hard slap on my right cheek. He will never change.

Chapter 1

Unfortuantly, I'm married to a man named Fawaz. I never thought I'll end up marrying this guy. He's a rude man, he treats me like a piece of junk. But, sometimes he makes me feel like a princess. I seriously love him, I know he loves me. It's okay for us to get into fights every other day. So, I'm Al-Jazi. People call me Jazi for short. I have long hair, small pointy noise, and tiny full lips. I'm a tiny creature. My weight is normal, im not very thin nor fat. So, I'm just sitting in my room watching MBC 4. Watching Fatma, it's a Turkish series which I love. I hope Fawaz doesnt come while I'm watching this. He doesnt allow me to watch this show, he says its 'inappropriate'. I was wearing shorts and a tank top. I dont like wearing shorts, bs I do it for Fawaz. We live in Lebanon, I don't get why Fawaz wants to live here. Well, things happen. I really miss Kuwait, though. My eyes glued to the screen, I was watching the series.
"Jazi! Cham mara agoolich la tshoufeena?" It was Fawaz. Nightmares here we come. I lowered my head.
Jazi: "Asfa."
Fawaz: "Ana mabi kila a3eed il 7achi."
Jazi: "Enshallah."
He was standing infront of the tv, blocking it. He turned the tv off and came next to me. I was shivering on the inside, I was scared.
Fawaz: "Jazi, tadreen iny a7ibich, 9a7?"
I was about to burst into tears. I couldnt handle it anymore. No, I don't know that you love me. Sometimes, you treat me like a piece of shit. Sometimes, you treat me like a princess. Your bipolar. I didnt want to come over here, Lebanon. Just because of your stupid job. I dont get how you can shout at me and I cant. How I have to do everything you tell me and you dont. How you can get out where ever you go and I cant. I'm living in hell with you. I cant help but feel unwanted when you tell your friends to come over and they judge my every move. I love you, Fawaz. But I'm not sure you love me back. I cant help but feel insecure. You always forget my birthday. You always shout at me. You always give me some orders to do. You wake me up at the middle of the night just to make you some freaking food. I dont regret marrying you, I just regret that I never stood up to you. That I never told you 'no.' Life isnt fair.